College
In a few days, my new life will finally start—college.
Ah yes, college, the so-called "thrilling rollercoaster of my life," or so the others say. Let me just get something straight: I am not entering college to have fun, get drunk or wasted at parties, have premarital sex with some girl I met at a party, or any of that stuff. And yes, I'm serious.
Okay, sure, I can decide to attend parties—even wild parties—but I'm sure (and I hope) that I won't get drunk or do drugs, or worse yet, do something embarrassing due to over intoxication in those said parties. I'm not strictly forbidding myself to join any parties or meetups, I'm just forbidding myself to do something extremely wild or crazy in those events.
But aside from that, yeah, I'm excited.
I'm not too excited, but I am thrilled at the fact that I'm going to start anew-ish. I'm definitely not going to start on a clean slate, that's for sure, because there are people who personally know me (some of them I've known since elementary), meaning that I won't actually get that "clean slate" I've been hoping for. But nevertheless, it's still a sort of "clean slate" because there will be a lot of new people who don't know me. I just hope my record stays clean and (hopefully) someone that personally knows my past won't expose all of the horrible things I did back then.
I already did those said acts and I've already learned from them. Geez, get over it already. Move on.
If, by some chance, someone brings back my past and uses it as leverage or as a way to ruin my reputation . . . well, let's just say that whoever will do that is just pathetic. I'm not going to argue with them, I'm not going to start a fight with them. Heck, I won't even make a 1000 word blog post about them. If someone does that, I'll just forget about that person, move on, forget about that person, and find a way to explain to my new friend/s that I'm not the same person I was 3 or 2 years ago.
So, yeah, that's what I'm going to do. I'm still afraid that I will (inevitably) do something stupid or fuck up during my first day orientation. Maybe I forgot to bring a notebook, or I was supposed to bring my laptop, or I forgot my ID, or maybe something else. I'm a total noob when it comes to college (or real life, for that matter) and I literally don't know what to do, or what we'll do, on the first day. Life doesn't come with an instruction manual—and so does college. I'm 70% sure I'll do something wrong on the first day, I just feel it. Who knows? Maybe I might accidentally break something, or accidentally hit someone in the face. I don't know, but I'm pretty sure that I'll do something wrong.
Despite all of the negativity aforementioned here, I'm certain that college will be better than high school, and I know it.
My next post will be on June 1. Until then, I'll see you guys next time.
Ah yes, college, the so-called "thrilling rollercoaster of my life," or so the others say. Let me just get something straight: I am not entering college to have fun, get drunk or wasted at parties, have premarital sex with some girl I met at a party, or any of that stuff. And yes, I'm serious.
Okay, sure, I can decide to attend parties—even wild parties—but I'm sure (and I hope) that I won't get drunk or do drugs, or worse yet, do something embarrassing due to over intoxication in those said parties. I'm not strictly forbidding myself to join any parties or meetups, I'm just forbidding myself to do something extremely wild or crazy in those events.
But aside from that, yeah, I'm excited.
I'm not too excited, but I am thrilled at the fact that I'm going to start anew-ish. I'm definitely not going to start on a clean slate, that's for sure, because there are people who personally know me (some of them I've known since elementary), meaning that I won't actually get that "clean slate" I've been hoping for. But nevertheless, it's still a sort of "clean slate" because there will be a lot of new people who don't know me. I just hope my record stays clean and (hopefully) someone that personally knows my past won't expose all of the horrible things I did back then.
I already did those said acts and I've already learned from them. Geez, get over it already. Move on.
If, by some chance, someone brings back my past and uses it as leverage or as a way to ruin my reputation . . . well, let's just say that whoever will do that is just pathetic. I'm not going to argue with them, I'm not going to start a fight with them. Heck, I won't even make a 1000 word blog post about them. If someone does that, I'll just forget about that person, move on, forget about that person, and find a way to explain to my new friend/s that I'm not the same person I was 3 or 2 years ago.
So, yeah, that's what I'm going to do. I'm still afraid that I will (inevitably) do something stupid or fuck up during my first day orientation. Maybe I forgot to bring a notebook, or I was supposed to bring my laptop, or I forgot my ID, or maybe something else. I'm a total noob when it comes to college (or real life, for that matter) and I literally don't know what to do, or what we'll do, on the first day. Life doesn't come with an instruction manual—and so does college. I'm 70% sure I'll do something wrong on the first day, I just feel it. Who knows? Maybe I might accidentally break something, or accidentally hit someone in the face. I don't know, but I'm pretty sure that I'll do something wrong.
Despite all of the negativity aforementioned here, I'm certain that college will be better than high school, and I know it.
My next post will be on June 1. Until then, I'll see you guys next time.
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