The Metro Diary

Heya! I just decided to open my Minecraft earlier for no particular reason and I checked out me and Jean's Scarlet Mansion in the server that we used to go to. I remember I had put all of the books, diaries, and letters she sent me last summer in a chest. To my surprise, they were all there. ALL THERE. Here are some of the cute, sweet things that the old Jean wrote to me: You know, I miss Jean. Not this Jean. The old Jean. The old Jean that used to send me writings and sweet, long letters. The Jean that used to play Minecraft and hide and seek with me. The old Jean that used to Skype with me everyday, from dawn to midnight, there was even one time when we "Skyped" for 5/8 hours straight. I miss the old Jean who was my best friend. Like I said a million times, me and Jean are just too.......different now. Her best-guy-friend is my friend and she's friends with, like, a thousand people (preferably, guys) on Facebook. Back then, she didn...

Wew what a horrible and awesome day. The best part was when I talked to my wonderful, awesome and super super sweet sister, Elaine (: Yesh, she is indeed, my sister xD Well, it started on....November 4 or 3 when she became my sister. We have soooooooooooo much stuff in common, by the way. She told me to move on about Jean and forget her because of all the mean things Jean did to me, well, I'm going to follow her anyway. After all, the old Jean is dead, right? I deleted out memories because no one wanted them anymore. Jean didn't like them, my friends didn't like them, so I had to DELETE them. (If you want to see them being deleted, the screenshots are in " Time To Move On " Of course I won't feel sad (: I'm with Elaine now, not Jean anymore. Besides, what's the use of liking and thinking that she liked me when she exactly said "I couldn't or never like or love you" What's the use, right? You know what else Jean did? She sent ...

I think I still like Jean a little, but not the present Jean, the old Jean. The one who used to be nice to me, my old girlfriend. Anyway, I just dug through the bottom of my heart and I found our memories together. Why do I always grow fond of those memories? I dunno either. But deep deep deep down in my heart.....I still love Jean. I don't like the present Jean actually. She's more beautiful, more gorgeous, more better and (more hotter) than the previous Jean.....but......the main thing is.....so what? The present Jean of today hardly treats me like the old Jean used to. She's less kind, less caring, less nicer, less understanding, and of course, less loving. I'm not after Jeans looks, I'm after her personality. I'm more after the old Jean who used to love me. I remember what the girl said in Dating Agency: Cyrano "Do you like cute girls, or hot girls?" Looking at the past and the present, the old Jean was a cute girl and the present Jean is ...

Well here we are again. It's always such a pleasure. Remember when we met? Oh how we laughed and laughed. Under the circumstances I've been shockingly nice. You want your freedom? Take it Goodbye my best friend. Oh, did you think I meant you? That would be funny if it weren't so sad... Well, it's official, me and Jean aren't friends anymore. Sorry it took me a while to post this. I was trying to think about what happened. Ugh, me and Jean are gone. She said that I should forget about her and stuff. I don't know what to do. It feels weird not seeing Jean in my chatbox or seeing her profile. It's really weird. Oh God, I'm sooo tired of crying and stuff. I've been crying for 7-8 hours straight. I don't know what to do, but she's happy now. You know... I'm feeling more regret right now... I feel horrible. I still keep our old text messages and I've managed to copy all 3000+ messages to my laptop. Huhh...memories...... If there was like......