The Metro Diary

Heya! I just decided to open my Minecraft earlier for no particular reason and I checked out me and Jean's Scarlet Mansion in the server that we used to go to. I remember I had put all of the books, diaries, and letters she sent me last summer in a chest. To my surprise, they were all there. ALL THERE. Here are some of the cute, sweet things that the old Jean wrote to me: You know, I miss Jean. Not this Jean. The old Jean. The old Jean that used to send me writings and sweet, long letters. The Jean that used to play Minecraft and hide and seek with me. The old Jean that used to Skype with me everyday, from dawn to midnight, there was even one time when we "Skyped" for 5/8 hours straight. I miss the old Jean who was my best friend. Like I said a million times, me and Jean are just too.......different now. Her best-guy-friend is my friend and she's friends with, like, a thousand people (preferably, guys) on Facebook. Back then, she didn...

Argh, I can't take it! It's like I'm in solitary confinement or that I'm stuck on a deserted island. Welp, while I'm here, I might as well tell the stuff that I miss. I miss Elaine, my best friend Jean, Paula, Jeramil, Ryanne and everyone else :/ I miss wearing my best clothes and talking with my best friends on Facebook.. I miss going out with Jean I miss being called by my friends I miss my late night talks and roleplays with Jean I miss eating past 12am I miss the way how Elaine calls me her "little one" I miss how everyone used to care about me I miss how Elaine and I used to talk everyday I miss how Jean used to Skype and play Minecraft with me I miss the late night Skype calls I miss when my Skype friends used to have a video conference and we'd talk for hours I miss when I used to call Elaine on her phone I miss those times when I flood Elaine and she'd say that it's okay if I flood her notifications Most of all, I mi...

As you guys have noticed, I have removed "Jean's Corner" and turned it into "Elaine's Corner". Well, that's not the only change you'll notice around here, I'll add more and more and mooooorrreee changes soon, just wait. After Jean left, I've decided to redesign and change my life, step by step, piece by piece. I've decided, I'm going to change the way I act. No more old me, goodbye memories. For the record: SHE THREW ME OUT FIRST Common sense will tell you that you should move on too, right? Well, that's what I'm (hopefully) trying to do and that's what Jean is currently doing. You know what? Jean left me first Jean didn't want to be my best friend anymore Jean left me.... Did she always have to make me feel this bad? I barely said anything horrible to you. And now you throw me away that easily... ...but....I thought you treasured our memories and that you.... .... Well.....now that I think of i...

I see that Jean is doing just fine without me, I told you so. See, this is why Jean can move on and forget about us in sassafrassin'  one day. Good grief, I'll just leave her alone this time so that she may be happy with that new guy and that I will be happy with my new friends and with Elaine. I hate it when cartoons and shows say their final goodbye, but, I have to say it, goodbye Jean. *Plays music* We hate to say goodbye, we hate to say goodbye ram-pum-pum It's just like that quote I read earlier. It's painful to say goodbye to a person you don't want to let go. But it's more painful if you ask someone to stay if you know they really want to go Goodbye Jean, old friend. Our time has passed, you've moved on to do better things than Skype and play Minecraft. I guess it's time to let you go and leave you alone now. *Tears fall form my eyes* Nah, I'm just kidding everyone. Not about the Jean thing, that really will happen tomorr...

Wew what a horrible and awesome day. The best part was when I talked to my wonderful, awesome and super super sweet sister, Elaine (: Yesh, she is indeed, my sister xD Well, it started on....November 4 or 3 when she became my sister. We have soooooooooooo much stuff in common, by the way. She told me to move on about Jean and forget her because of all the mean things Jean did to me, well, I'm going to follow her anyway. After all, the old Jean is dead, right? I deleted out memories because no one wanted them anymore. Jean didn't like them, my friends didn't like them, so I had to DELETE them. (If you want to see them being deleted, the screenshots are in " Time To Move On " Of course I won't feel sad (: I'm with Elaine now, not Jean anymore. Besides, what's the use of liking and thinking that she liked me when she exactly said "I couldn't or never like or love you" What's the use, right? You know what else Jean did? She sent ...

I think I still like Jean a little, but not the present Jean, the old Jean. The one who used to be nice to me, my old girlfriend. Anyway, I just dug through the bottom of my heart and I found our memories together. Why do I always grow fond of those memories? I dunno either. But deep deep deep down in my heart.....I still love Jean. I don't like the present Jean actually. She's more beautiful, more gorgeous, more better and (more hotter) than the previous Jean.....but......the main thing is.....so what? The present Jean of today hardly treats me like the old Jean used to. She's less kind, less caring, less nicer, less understanding, and of course, less loving. I'm not after Jeans looks, I'm after her personality. I'm more after the old Jean who used to love me. I remember what the girl said in Dating Agency: Cyrano "Do you like cute girls, or hot girls?" Looking at the past and the present, the old Jean was a cute girl and the present Jean is ...

I really need to move on from the old Jean. I still love her a little.. Well, that's my desktop for now. I wanted to make it look more beautiful just like before, but it's useless. What's the use of it anyway? My heart still aches for Jean's old texts messages because I miss her and I love her so much. I don't love the present/current Jean. She might look, sound and act like the old Jean... ....but the fact is....she's just not the Jean I used to know and love I know I'm not the only one experiencing this. I just know it. My soulmate (or whoever she is), must be having the same problem, too. I need to meet her, I'm getting pretty lonely these days and it seems like nothing is helping. I recovered the texts to my laptop using Nokia Suite. Jean's texts ALWAYS made my day Her texts were so sweet. She must've cared for me a lot back then. Sure, her grammar might be a little off, but I don't care. To b...

Well here we are again. It's always such a pleasure. Remember when we met? Oh how we laughed and laughed. Under the circumstances I've been shockingly nice. You want your freedom? Take it Goodbye my best friend. Oh, did you think I meant you? That would be funny if it weren't so sad... Well, it's official, me and Jean aren't friends anymore. Sorry it took me a while to post this. I was trying to think about what happened. Ugh, me and Jean are gone. She said that I should forget about her and stuff. I don't know what to do. It feels weird not seeing Jean in my chatbox or seeing her profile. It's really weird. Oh God, I'm sooo tired of crying and stuff. I've been crying for 7-8 hours straight. I don't know what to do, but she's happy now. You know... I'm feeling more regret right now... I feel horrible. I still keep our old text messages and I've managed to copy all 3000+ messages to my laptop. Huhh...memories...... If there was like......