The Metro Diary

Well, it was time to say goodbye sooner or later. This blog of mine was just the most wonderful and interesting part of my history. It caused a lot of controversy, sure, but it also caused some people to care and worry for me. I'm still not fully okay now, and I might never be, but the thought that people once tried to help you, love you, and care for you is what comforts me on cold nights. The "main characters" of this blog have already left my life, sadly. Jean and, sadly, Elaine. I'm saddened by Elaine the most because she was the most important gem in my life. She worried and cared so much about me at a time when no one else did. I miss her, and I still love her. Of course, I don't love her romantically, but I still love her and accept her as my sister dearest. For me, my love for her means more than my love for all my past crushes, loves, romantic interests combined. I really can't express how much I miss her, I just do. I wish I have someone like...

Every now and then, I find myself just staring at air, mostly at nothing, and I don't even know why I'm staring in the first place. But, as far as I can recall, I've been starting to miss past events, reminiscing, and just remembering the things I've done and wishing for things I could've done, but never really did. Also, there are those regrets that I've made, choices I've made that negatively impacted my life/relationship with others and I get sort of "extreme guilt" whenever I think to myself, "Hey, why did we do this? Why? What forced us to do this?" And so, I've decided to just spill my feeling out here (as always) on my blog and hopefully someone can understand, or at least TRY to understand the current situation that I'm in. I've also decided to cut this story into 4 parts:  Reminiscing , Regrets , Things I Have Done , and  Things I Could Have Done but Didn't Really Do . In this post, I'm going to start off w...

Song of the day: Beautiful Times - Owl City ft. Lindsey Stirling     Whew, thank God June is finally over! Which means, it's the first day of July and the start of, uh, July! (:   Like I've said a million times, I hate June , June of last year was probably the worst month of my entire life, but that was last year and thank God I had no "deep emotional problems" this June and to be honest, I'm doing quite good in school (at least I think so) and I've been joining a lot of clubs recently. School clubs, not bar clubs, gangster clubs or strip clubs, just to let you know xD   Anyway, I've been doing good so far. I'm doing good and my score have been on par recently, although I'm still having a hard time learning about Math. It's got all that "X plus Y equals C over AC minus B divided by the function of X" and stuff, it never really "clicked" with me. But still, I'm going to try even harder next week or so and s...

What Elaine's blog currently looks like (as of May 27, 2014). Elaine's blog sure did drastically change over time, right? Her blog has really, well, changed over time, and it sure did change because of one person: Elaine herself. I visit Elaine's blog from time to time, it's actually part of my daily routine to check on Elaine's blog to see if there are new " freshly-baked " posts. To be honest, I'm currently subscribed to Elaine's blog so that I can get push notifications on my Windows 8.1 laptop and my Nokia Lumia 900 whenever she makes a new post. I'm gonna tell you something: I redesigned Elaine's blog, Elaine's did the rest and personalized it herself, I just did the backbone of the blog. By the way, here's a screenshot of what Elaine's blog looked like before I redesigned it. Note: I used Google Chrome at the time, okay? I didn't use Internet Explorer until, like, January 2014. I still use Google Chrome to ...

*Watching My Girlfriend is a Gumiho on my laptop.* Geez, episode 10 is so dramatic and relatable; it's “dramatable,” or something like that. Anyways, I'm not fond of watching K-Dramas much; but I have to say, My Girlfriend is a Gumiho is really the best Korean drama series (for me, that is) in the whole world. The moment that really captured me was when Mi Ho said, From now on, I'm going to study hard and get smart. And I'm going to work a lot and earn a lot of money. Then a light bulb flickers back to life in my head, giving me a great idea. *Takes a walk in a nearby mall and sits down on a bench.* Everyone else is working diligently to live. Ever since I met Jean, other than liking Jean, I haven't done anything. When I first met Jean, I didn't plan on anything aside from becoming her boyfriend. I only followed her, and liked her. I only believed her, and only lived to look good to her. Jean can give me her "friend-lo...

Argh, I can't take it! It's like I'm in solitary confinement or that I'm stuck on a deserted island. Welp, while I'm here, I might as well tell the stuff that I miss. I miss Elaine, my best friend Jean, Paula, Jeramil, Ryanne and everyone else :/ I miss wearing my best clothes and talking with my best friends on Facebook.. I miss going out with Jean I miss being called by my friends I miss my late night talks and roleplays with Jean I miss eating past 12am I miss the way how Elaine calls me her "little one" I miss how everyone used to care about me I miss how Elaine and I used to talk everyday I miss how Jean used to Skype and play Minecraft with me I miss the late night Skype calls I miss when my Skype friends used to have a video conference and we'd talk for hours I miss when I used to call Elaine on her phone I miss those times when I flood Elaine and she'd say that it's okay if I flood her notifications Most of all, I mi...

I miss you like the sky misses the birds I miss you like a song without words And everyday away from you it hurts Cuz I'm missing you like crazy I miss you like the sun misses the day I need you like the desert that needs the rain And baby it's driving me insane Cuz I'm missing you like crazy I'm missing you like crazy -  bByxinnOceNz / steph <3 I've been reading Tiffany's Xanga blogs for days now (yes, Tiffany of So Nyeo Shi Dae, Tiffany Hwang) and I'm really starting to love it. This Tiffany to be exact :D Actually, her Xanga blogs are the main reason why I created and started my own blog. Without knowing Tiffany's Xanga blogs, I wouldn't be here right now making this post and sharing my everyday stories. Anyways, I found a questionnaire on Tiffany's Xanga blogs and I've decided that I'll do it as well :D I'll delete Tiffany's answers, but the questions will be preserve...

^ Dat... HOLY FUCKING SHIT JESSICA IS SO FUCKING HOT IN HER MISS KOREA SWIMSUIT ....that round fluffy butt... I mean, that round and fluffy... ...butt OKAY, I ADMIT IT JESSICA IS HOT AS HELL AND I WOULD LOVE TO... ....no....control yourself, Lance... Anyways, this day was just awesome I talked to Ryanne and did a lot of stuff today Ryanne, to be honest, is a really nice girl and she seems like a nice girl I like her anyway, but I shouldn't tell her that since she won't like me back Too bad though, she won't like me I'll try hard to look for a girl in 2014 I'll try to find someone who will like me, someone who sees the stuff I do I pity myself for doing a lot of stuff to someone.. For now, Elaine is the only one that truly appreciates me She knows how much stuff I do for her, how much I sacrifice for her, how much I cried for her, how much I spent time with her, how much she means to me I hope my future girlfriend will...

Holy shit, my life has never felt so fucking flawless and complete! SNSD just released their album yesterday and I got it the minute it went fucking out The new songs and shit. ALL OF THE SONGS ARE AWESOME (Especially "Flyers"). I was supposed to post this yesterday but I got too lazy and I was busy listening to the new album. Anyways, Sir James posted something about the human mind having demonic influence. I felt shocked and a little worried about Sir James though. For me, I don't even think of the demon or any demonic creature that much. I'm a super-cheerful and energetic little person, I don't like to think about sadness and depression anymore. The mind isn't under demonic influence (well, maybe some of the people in this world), well, I'm not under any sadistic demonic influence. People like me are so happy-go-lucky and most people like me are a "little ball of sunshine". Sones are like my family, they provide me with the hap...

Holy cuhraps...what's that feeling...? I feel....shy towards her...I feel like....ummm....well.....weird There it goes. Cupid's arrow gets a direct hit. ...I'm out of words, honestly, I feel shy towards her, I started listening to slow and love songs, I keep looking at her pictures, I feel like I want to message her, I run away when she goes near and all that stuff. Is this.....love...? Oh no, I'm in trouble xD You know, I've known (let's just call her "Frosting") Frosting since....Students' Night. I danced with her....twice....and it felt great She was my last dance, the last girl who danced with me, the last girl my heart had beaten for. Woah, woah, woah, woah. We're getting carried away here. Dang these love songs, they're making me crazier and crazier each passing second. I had a good day today. Everything was going fine, I got to talk to Jeramil and she followed me on Twitter, I uploaded a pic to Instagram, oh you k...

I've been busy on these forum sites lately and less time on Facebook, not to mention Twitter. Anyways, I've been doing a lot of work on my profiles there, I'm having fun, posting and commenting like there's no tomorrow, etc. It's extremely fun there, seriously, I just love it when someone comments on my comments/posts and then some of us will argue and stuff. I made friends on Soshified and on WPCentral because of that :) How's my day been going? To tell you the truth, IT WAS AWESOME. I was poooossstttiiinnngggg and posting and posting nonstop at WPCentral and Soshified, I was able to do some stuff at the Nokia blog. I watched Dating Agency: Cyrano again, I got to see Windows 8.1 Store updates, and most of all, I was mostly with my friends the whole day. By the way, I saw Ariana Grande 's posts on my news feed today, I think I'm starting to have a crush on her or something xD I dunno what it is, but I smile whenever she posts somethi...