Saturday, March 29, 2014

*Watching My Girlfriend is a Gumiho on my laptop.*
Geez, episode 10 is so dramatic and relatable; it's “dramatable,” or something like that.
Anyways, I'm not fond of watching K-Dramas much; but I have to say, My Girlfriend is a Gumiho is really the best Korean drama series (for me, that is) in the whole world.

The moment that really captured me was when Mi Ho said,



From now on, I'm going to study hard and get smart.
And I'm going to work a lot and earn a lot of money.



Then a light bulb flickers back to life in my head, giving me a great idea.

*Takes a walk in a nearby mall and sits down on a bench.*

Everyone else is working diligently to live. Ever since I met Jean, other than liking Jean, I haven't done anything. When I first met Jean, I didn't plan on anything aside from becoming her boyfriend.

I only followed her, and liked her. I only believed her, and only lived to look good to her.


Jean can give me her "friend-love" now.
Until when? I just expect that I have a chance on her, give her everything I have and then she'll just leave me for her new friends?

I don't want that anymore.

Even though you don't like another man...
...you don't like me either.


Even though you give me stuff.
You can't give me your heart.

It's wrong for me to ask you to like me.

It's wrong for me to ask any girl to like me anyway.

I guess the best thing to do now is to forget ALL my love-related feelings for Jean as she won't see me as a “potential lover” or some shit like that. To be honest, I expected a lot from Jean. I had so many wishes and expectations. I kept dreaming everyday 1-2 years ago on how my life with Jean would be in the future.

Little did I know that none of those dreams would really happen and all my expectations would be destroyed after 2 years.

Now, I have to start thinking for myself.

Jean always tells me that most of the stuff I've been doing is wrong and/or unsatisfactory to her.

She tells me that I should change my hobbies, stop liking So Nyeo Shi Dae, and do this, do those.
In the end, I got nowhere. 

Sir James told me that I should have moved on from Jean a long time ago. Since I'm wasting my time and her time, I should move on and look for new girls; there are a lot of them out there. In addition, who knows, he said that I might find the right one soon enough.

I guess that's what he's trying to tell me, to look for better options and find brighter opportunities.

It seems that I should also stop being so desperate to get a girlfriend and just focus on my hobbies and likings for now.

Focus on So Nyeo Shi Dae; try out more operating systems based on Linux; try to improve my grammar s'more, stuff like that.

My plan for the upcoming future:

1.     Prioritize Elaine on EVERYTHING. Just prioritize Elaine for now.
2.     Focus on speeding up my laptop and making it better.
3.     Bro's first. Girls later.
4.     Spend more time with my fellow SONES and K-Poppers alike.
5.     Write fan fictions, stories, and small SNSD-based adventures.
6.     “Soshilize” with more SONES, try to make more SONE friends.
7.     Attend K-Pop conventions and SNSD conventions.
8.     Find a nice, kind girl who appreciates SNSD as much as me and spend time with her.
9.     Be socially active throughout social networks (Facebook, Twitter, LinkedIn, and WPCentral).
10.  Read more Reader's Digest.

My plan might look very childish to you. It might even seem like it was just something I randomly wrote, but in Korean dramas and most of the movies I watched, those were the wishes that people made most often.

To spend more time with their own kind, to live in the life that they wanted, to make their own footsteps, and to focus more on what they want.

I guess I should start on the first thing on my plan: To focus more on Elaine.

Elaine's a really nice and kind girl. Elaine is the only girl in the world that treats me as if I'm special these days.

I should act nicer to my big sister, Elaine, more often now. I should also try to help her out with her duties and her blog if I can.



I'm sorry, but it seems that I have to end this post now.
This'll be a long list to complete and it will take a lot of time to finish all of the plans.
Nevertheless, I'm sure that in the end, I'll be happy and end up completely satisfied.

Goodbye!