The Metro Diary

After what happened between Sofia  – yes, her name was Sofia – and I, I decided to repair myself and, you know, start over again. I'm going to make this post short, sweet, and to the point because I'm soooo tired and I feel like "marrying my bed" again xD Kidding aside, this whole Sofia thing started to make sense. I found out the thing that rocked me to my core: She lied to me . This whole time she was lying to me. Now, I'm not here to put my assumptions out here in the open, no, I'm just here to state some of the facts and shit I've uncovered after finding out her oh-so-clever plot. So, she told me that she loved me and all that crud. When in reality, she had a boyfriend this whole time. She kept telling me that she loved me and that I have a chance on becoming her boyfriend, and with the hope of being in a relationship with her. Not only that, I also found out that some guy – some spawn of pure evil, a person whose life is completely ...

I gotta admit it, this week was the worst week of my entire life. I got all this stuff going through me and I can't handle it anymore. I honestly think that my heart cannot handle all this sadness, misery, and pain anymore. I'm starting to think that I wasted all my efforts on nothing. I'll just face it and say it here: All my efforts for Janine were fruitless, futile, stupid, and all in vain . I've realized now that I never had a chance with her in the first place. The made an eternal promise to each other, and until now she's keeping her end of the promise. For those who don't know, I just found out that SHE MADE AN ETERNAL PROMISE WITH HER EX-BOYFRIEND TO LOVE HIM FOREVER AND EVER and all that stuff. My body, heart, and soul is getting tired from all of this. I just want to have it simple, no complications whatsoever. Sure, there may be a lot of you guys out there who think, "Oh, come on, dude! It's just a promise, she'll break her prom...

Well, this week has certainly been a "shitstorm" for me. For me, these past few days were challenging as fuck. It was full of highs and lows, it was also filled with a lot of drama, I can tell you that. This week has put mind, body, and sanity through various (and rigorous) obstacles - most of which I was unable to overcome. But the thing that really shattered my heart was this one simple fact: Janine, the girl whom I loved so much, won't be there for me when I needed her the most. Oh well, it was a fun run but I guess all good things have an end. On the last day of August, August 31, I will officially STOP loving her and focus on moving on. (Hopefully it won't take a year or two.) I'm pretty sure that the guys who "competed with me in the F5200 league" will be overjoyed when they read this blog post. They'll probably scream, "Yay! Lance is gone! Thank you, God! Janine is mine now!" Or something like that. Whatever happens,...

I'm sorry, guys, I let you all down. More importantly, I let myself down. I just found out that she likes someone else around a few hours ago and I've decided to just....give up. I now see that she has her heart set on another man and she has her own preference when it comes to men, just the same as everyone does. Obviously, I'm not "fit enough" for her criteria and I'm not her type of guy. To shortly sum this up, she likes men who are not like me, period. So...what am I gonna do now? Well, the best option I see right now is to just give up, go down to a weird downward spiral and enter a world of depression, again, and just accept her decision. It's hers to make anyway, not mine. I am sorry if I'm not your ideal type of guy. It really hurts me, a lot. I've never had my heart shattered into this many pieces before. It feels like a dark, depressing veil has been cast over me, taking my joy, happiness, and feelings of "Hope" alo...

*Watching My Girlfriend is a Gumiho on my laptop.* Geez, episode 10 is so dramatic and relatable; it's “dramatable,” or something like that. Anyways, I'm not fond of watching K-Dramas much; but I have to say, My Girlfriend is a Gumiho is really the best Korean drama series (for me, that is) in the whole world. The moment that really captured me was when Mi Ho said, From now on, I'm going to study hard and get smart. And I'm going to work a lot and earn a lot of money. Then a light bulb flickers back to life in my head, giving me a great idea. *Takes a walk in a nearby mall and sits down on a bench.* Everyone else is working diligently to live. Ever since I met Jean, other than liking Jean, I haven't done anything. When I first met Jean, I didn't plan on anything aside from becoming her boyfriend. I only followed her, and liked her. I only believed her, and only lived to look good to her. Jean can give me her "friend-lo...

Holy shit, my life has never felt so fucking flawless and complete! SNSD just released their album yesterday and I got it the minute it went fucking out The new songs and shit. ALL OF THE SONGS ARE AWESOME (Especially "Flyers"). I was supposed to post this yesterday but I got too lazy and I was busy listening to the new album. Anyways, Sir James posted something about the human mind having demonic influence. I felt shocked and a little worried about Sir James though. For me, I don't even think of the demon or any demonic creature that much. I'm a super-cheerful and energetic little person, I don't like to think about sadness and depression anymore. The mind isn't under demonic influence (well, maybe some of the people in this world), well, I'm not under any sadistic demonic influence. People like me are so happy-go-lucky and most people like me are a "little ball of sunshine". Sones are like my family, they provide me with the hap...

I've been thinking the whole day. What if Jean doesn't want me back? What if Jean genuinely and literally wants to forget about me. So, I've been thinking of running on a new OS (personality). Just like Microsoft Windows, I too will run on an NT-based kernel and Operating System. The fundamentals of my personality, my aspect, my looks and most importantly, my method of living will be redesigned, reinvented, and reimagined. It's all about those Re- stuff, right? :D Windows is running on Windows NT. Oh, and speaking of Microsoft Windows, I'm actually a Windows 8.1 user and I love it! I'm currently listening to So Nyeo Shi Dae - My Oh My whilst typing this down on Internet Explorer's Metro app. I have to say, my laptop never run faster since I upgraded to Windows 8/Windows 8.1 My laptop actually ran on Windows 7 Home Premium when I first got it, then I upgraded to Windows 8 and Windows 8.1 Windows aside, I need to renew my life, to redesign i...

Ahhh....Saturday...wait....hold on...my test is on Wednesday. Oh God..I have loong hair! They're probably gonna cut it on Monday :D Well, I'm going to cut my hair, goddammit, I HATE cutting my hair. Oh, how's my new series? Is it okay? If not, I'll try to improve it as time goes on (: Like I said, this blog is still in BETA and most of the stuff I do and post here are developmental. They're not the final product......yet Anyways, today was a boring Saturday, as usual. The only thing that made this day exciting is that me and Jean had a fight. Not only that, but I was so tired of fighting with her. I almost said my final Goodbye to Jean. Why can't that girl and me just get along for Windows' sake! We used to be best friends and now....well....we argue....everyday...huhh.. You know, I want her to return to her old life, the life before we started talking again. I just wanted to be great....oh my God....something just made a sound... ...