The Metro Diary

I gotta admit it, this week was the worst week of my entire life. I got all this stuff going through me and I can't handle it anymore. I honestly think that my heart cannot handle all this sadness, misery, and pain anymore. I'm starting to think that I wasted all my efforts on nothing. I'll just face it and say it here: All my efforts for Janine were fruitless, futile, stupid, and all in vain . I've realized now that I never had a chance with her in the first place. The made an eternal promise to each other, and until now she's keeping her end of the promise. For those who don't know, I just found out that SHE MADE AN ETERNAL PROMISE WITH HER EX-BOYFRIEND TO LOVE HIM FOREVER AND EVER and all that stuff. My body, heart, and soul is getting tired from all of this. I just want to have it simple, no complications whatsoever. Sure, there may be a lot of you guys out there who think, "Oh, come on, dude! It's just a promise, she'll break her prom...

Ahhh....nothing beats the shit out of me like a cup of hot coffee on a busy day. As a perfectionist, I try to make my cup of coffee perfect with every drop. That means, it's going to take me a lot of time to make a fine damn cup of coffee. I have to get distilled water, boil it for 5 minutes and shit. Then I have to prepare the creamer and slowly put it above the wire gauze above the steam that's coming out of the kettle. What a fancy (and time-consuming) way to make a cup of Joe, don't you think so? Well, in the end, the long wait was worth it. Besides, I use the waiting time to reflect upon my life (and watch movies). Oh, you know, the usual. The good things I've done, the bad things, my good deeds, my sins and that kind of shit. I've thought to myself over and over again about the choices I've made in my life. Well...to be honest....it seems like I've pretty much wasted it. I never had a girlfriend, never attended any  Project X -lik...